goodbyes

i hate goodbyes, maybe more than anything in the world. sometimes it feels like when there is so much to be said almost nothing comes out right.

i said goodbye to my sweet and loyal best friend on easter sunday. teasdale, my dog, was laid to rest. she was 11 and in my eyes she was perfect.

i have sat down several times to start to write about her, but the truth is that nothing i have written feels right or seems to do her justice.

i miss her, more everyday. she was the most constant and loyal friend in my life. i am lonely without her. i miss her wagging tail greeting me, i miss her persistence to be pet and her excitement to go running. i miss her curled up at the foot of my bed at night. i miss her following me around the house and i miss talking to her at night. last week when it thundered, i missed worrying about her in the storm.

president mckay said that he will ride his favorite horse in heaven, obviously teaser will be in heaven if his horse is there. so instead of saying goodbye, i want to say thank you. thank you teas for being the best friend i have ever had. thank you for your lust for life, your cantagious happiness and loyalty beyond measure.